I had this thought long way back...say 4 years ago.
I had this thought: I would like to pursue a career overseas.
I was indeed busy doing up some research,exploring and gathering facts and details about SEA countries, Middle East and last but not least, Down under.
There were great prospect overseas for Early Childhood education overseas. I was reading up on the early childhood prospects in UAE,Norway, Dubai, Indonesia, India and it was indeed intriguing. At the age of 20, I felt the adrenalin rush.
I was young, I had this crazy ambition but I HAVE NO MONEY!
Furthermore, my parents don't even know about this but I waited for an opportunity to tell them about this.
It's not easy but being young, I had the energy, the inner motivation to seek out whatever that's available out there.
I was fickle though. I was doing loads of contemplation until I narrowed down my choices: Dubai, Australia.
Then I told myself: So is this it?
3 years down the road, I started picking up new skills, made a few contacts around the world when suddenly I met...ehem ehem....the love of my life! (the present one)
I was over the moon...(oh come on, don't deny this, everyone knows how falling in love makes one feel!)
Suddenly, my goals and perspective in Life started to change. I started mapping out new possibilities in life.
I've never considered marriage, children, owning a house but right after my 23rd birthday, things took a different toll.
I started bringing marriage into life. Ok...I'm not getting married now but it's just that, my goals have changed.
But...........
as time passes by and looking at the economy, the surrounding, I started digging back "the old facts."
Back then, being single, I had no one to worry for except maybe my family. But now, I'm sharing my life with someone. If God willing, He gives me positive signs to tell me that, "he is really the one!"
I had a minor discussion with Faz over this. He seems pretty 'ok' with it, hmmm..I don't know. My parents are worried when I blurted out the idea to them.
So Plan A still seems very blurry....still. I'm glad Nunu made a decision and kudos to her for making 'Down under' her home.
Anyway, so what's next?
Well.....house. Yes.....whatever it is... I would like to have my own house.
I told my parents about it and they were very supportive (but I can hear them chuckling to themselves at times!) and they told me to save up.
So...I guess for now....I don't know....it still seem so blurry.
For now, life means, waking up every morning to ----> "Good morning, good morning, it's nice to see your smiley face. Good morning, good morning to you and to me. Hello, how are you? Hello, how are you? Hello, how are you, how are you today?It's good to see Ms Ezan here......"
LOL....bummer
p/s: Oh goodness....potty-training is totally wacko-doodle. "Ms Ezan....I did my wee-wee already"........(on the floor....mak tolong aku!)
Labels: commitment, decision-making, goals, potty training
