'Atok' passed away, 2 days after Faz and I visited him at the hospital when he had to undergo an operation. I remembered his face clearly that night when we visited him. He was very happy to see Faz and I and he was talking to us calmly even though he was in pain.
His last words to us, "bawak motor baik-baik ok" after which he gave a smile to us, a smile which I have never seen before and an approving nod.
2 days later at 0059, 23rd April 2009, I received numerous calls from my uncle and aunt. I was half-asleep, waiting for Faz to come back from JB. The wind was really, really different that night, howling, eerie sound of the wind which gave me chills down my spine. I was praying and hoping that everyone who's outside in particular beau will be alright.
I finally picked up uncle's call at 0115, he was really pissed and was sobbing. He ordered me to wake my mum up even though I did not want to since we're not on talking terms for almost a week. But after hearing those words, "atok nazak ezan, atok nazak,call mama!"
I couldn't think straight and I knocked really hard on my parent's room. MOm was half-asleep and as I was telling her the sad news, she nearly fainted. She couldn't think and started to cry.
I forgot to read one particular sms on my phone, sent to me at 0101. It was beau.
I called him immediately to tell him the news. I did not expect him to come along but he did. Mum and dad went to pick my uncle and aunt up in Choa Chu Kang while beau and I was speeding at the expressway at 120-140km on the bike.
Beau barely slept after he got back from JB but his mom gave him the approval and he went with me (I love you for that....),giving me the emotional support which I needed and being there with my family and I at CGH. We were 10 minutes away from the hospital and Beau was squeezing my hands while riding the bike. It was dangerous to do so but we were just hoping for the best.
We thought we were going to make it, but we were too late. We were a few minutes late. Atok was gone at 2am. I was dumbfounded and just cried in Faz's arms. Mom, dad, uncle and aunt arrived 5 minutes later and we were all mourning.
More family members arrived and we just could not believe that he's gone. The operation had its side effects but I soon learnt that there were a couple of other matters that triggered an attack.
Beau felt sorry for me and he thought we could be on time to bid our final goodbyes to atok.
But there is so much that one can do in this world. I really appreciate his presence, his sincerity for being there with me, with the rest of my family members.
The irony of it all, I lost a loved one, I gained another one. Mom started talking to me and we are on good terms now. I have been bringing Faz home and everyone's thankful for him being there. His mom was also very understanding and she was ok with Faz coming with me.
Atok is gone now, Allah swt loves him more. I can only offer him my prayers and hopefully he'll be placed with everyone that's faithful to Him....insyallah
I am going to miss the hardcore wrestling supporter who never fails to watch every wrestling match on SCV, the hardcore Manchester United fan who is always calling me to tell me of Arsenal defeats and Man-u triumphs and the man who knows no pain in everything....I am going to miss you Atok but that is life, we all die one day!
You're my Man-U-wrestling-dangdut-dondang sayang fan.......
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