Where matters of the heart is concerned, it is never that easy to make everyone happy...never!

When you make one happy,the other gets upset and you ended up feeling really, really bad and guilty. I hated that feeling, hated it so much.

All I wanted to do is make everyone happy. I guess I was afraid of losing someone along the way. To lose someone you love along the way is a huge loss for me....really!

Even now, I feel that I have lost some of most important people in life and I feel bad and sad over it.

They said that in Life, you win some, you lose some. You can't win all the way and you definitely won't lose all the way. In all fairness, only you can make the difference in building close rapport and strengthening the camarederie between your fellow comrades.

For now, I'm "sandwiched" in between. I am and I don't feel good. Losing one is a temporary loss for me but losing both means DEPRESSION.....and I do not want to end up this way...no way... I admit...I am not strong for this because I am human afterall.

We'll see how things go but for now.....all I have to do is pray for the best.